Tuesday, March 16, 2010

A Letter To Wayne

I usually try to stay positive, but this is something ive wanted to post for about a week or so. Its been saved in my drafts and im just gonna go ahead and post it. Im not sure why, just venting I guess. If I could disable comments i would because im not looking for sympathy or anything of the sort. I came across this song the other day and it keeps playing in my head. So to anybody who has lost somebody this song hits close to home.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone


It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today

Would you see the world?
Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family?
I wonder, what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy


Today, Today, Today
Today, Today, Today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know I'll see you again someday

Kenny Chesney sang it, and it brought me to my knees in the fetal position to hear it cause it rang so true. Not a day goes by I dont remember you. Sometimes I laugh, sometimes I long to talk with you again. But mostly I cry. You taught me how to live and showed me how to die. You were my big brother and I was lucky enough to become best friends with you. There will never be another like you. It has been six and a half months since you were taken from us and i still can't believe your gone. I love you big bro.



Alexa Mae said...

this was a great letter to wayne. i can see him up there now just playing with your little girl, getting her ready to come down to you. probably even giving her all the tips on how to make you mad and how to fool you. haha i love you! you are so strong.

Dani "Farber" and Jimmy said...

i agree...families are forever... love you hun.

Hardwick Family said...

Dont know how I missed this post! I hate death! I dont really hate it but I guess I just hate it when it comes before it should! I cry for you Amber! I am so sorry this happened to you. You are my best friend and I hate that this happened to you!

Holy Cow! said...

the first time I heard that song in my car, it gave me goose bumps and the chills, I went home and listened to it again... I cried like a baby! such an awesome song. I love you Amber!